Spanish Version
When I first started blogging over two years ago at my now inactive blog, Resurrect Your Hero, I was on crutches recovering from an ankle surgery. I was forced to stop everything so I could heal. I couldn’t imagine at the time that blogging would lead me into a new career in the Social Media realm. I was desperately hanging on by a thread in my work as a real estate broker.
Fast forward to now, and my life is completely turned around. I still maintain my real estate license, I don’t know why…maybe someone will hire me to broker a hefty deal which could give me a cushion to be able to have more time to write. But it is not in me anymore. Blogging and the new connections I have made through social media have become my new life. Luckily, my dermatologist brother has given me work as his Social Media Community Manager.
But the process along the way has brought many personal challenges to the point where I thought I was about to give up on blogging. I really can’t explain the circumstances of my stress this year because some have to do with my ex-husband, another in a lesser degree of letting go of some projects I had nurtured with my sister, and having boxes in my house ready to pack and move for a what seemed great job ($ wise) to only fizzle at the last minute. The money part was not so bad, that’s just material. What really got me was the degree of stress that I had with my ex-husband relating to my son and almost brought me to that point of letting go of everything. I was angry, sad and confused.
This blog combines my personal journey to inspire others to dream and a platform to motivate to follow their passions. But I feel I am not being real if I don’t share these thoughts. I have held back because I can’t share the details of the situation for fear of backlash. But it puts me in a quandry of being authentic.
My anger lies in constant questions: Why…why..why is that person making my life impossible? Why is this person degrading me to the point of almost making a decision to let go of my passion…which is writing. I felt like a failure in the sense that, in my anger, how could I ever motivate someone to be inspired?
Seven years ago, when I had a car accident that almost took my life…I said a prayer to God in the hospital that I would surrender to whatever He/She had in store for me. It was my wake up call and a real rebirth or what some may call a near death experience. I have all my experiences in those subsequent years written in a mini manuscript that I hope one day to publish, or maybe not…
But what is important is right now…. this moment. What am I feeling now? I get glimpses of inspiration that I share when I go to the beach, look at my butterfly garden and enjoy times with my son. But the reality is that the day to day in this past year, I have encountered tremendous challenges that have caused me great pain.
My greatest strength is my faith, tenacity and active reminder that I made this promise to God 7 1/2 years ago…to surrender to what He/She had in store for me. So today, I will surrender again and say to myself or God:
” If this is what you had in store for me, all these challenges, rough spots along the way to make me stronger, to make me gain more confidence in what I love to do, then I accept all these mini road trips along the path, and I surrender the pain to you and thank you for leading me to this path which has led me to creating this blog, Mi Caminar.
I thank you for inspiring me to start this blog because it had led me to meeting many wonderful people(online and in real life) who inspire ME. And if my path is to be inspired by others, so that I can share my inspirations, then I accept the rocky road that is presented to me in trust and faith the the road will become more beautiful along the way.”
So that’s it…maybe it is a step to move ahead and I realize that maybe I had it backwards all along…maybe I wasn’t supposed to be in this uppity…ra..ra..let me inspire you mode…it is YOU, who are reading this that inspires ME to write. My hope is that we all can transform a negative into a positive and keep on moving on…following our passions and our dreams. You are giving me the gift, by inspiring ME, to do…well…whatever it is I am supposed to do…only God knows..because my brain is not as intelligent as the Creator on high.
So the thought of the day is: “What are you doing to surrender to a better path?”