This picture was taken 18 years ago today, a few moments after I gave birth by ceasarian and after going through labor for 48 hours. I remember that moment if it were yesterday…that moment of awe, inspiration and amazement that this live human being came out of my own body..mind boggling…true beyond words inspirational moment.
Versión En Español: Inspiración Por Mi Hijo
And just a few hours before, those awful labor pains! I wanted to do everything natural, but boy oh boy..when this baby was pushing to come out, I couldn’t dilate. He was mighty ready, and my body was not. My obstetrician, who had been delivering babies naturally for decades, was the type to allow nature to take its course. But finally, he said: “The baby is struggling. We need to get him out.”
And by then, the pain was so strong, that I begged for the epidural, the shot that numbs you wanting desperate relief from the pain.
But the pain and all that drama for 48 hours flew out the window the moment that they brought me this beautiful 8 1/2 pound infant boy. Now he towers me at 6 feet and 175 pounds! How and when did time fly? It really did move so fast!
Life is funny right? You experience ups and downs, pains, disappointments, but the richness in experiencing inspiration and love from a child outweighs any hardship and discomfort in life. I have had many intense life challenging experiences, so God gave me the gift of having a son that is near perfect. Cristian has been the angel in my life to give me happiness, smiles, laughter and so much joy. He is a jokester and a peaceful type, reserved yet witty, accompanied by many funny faces.
I immersed myself in motherhood full force from day 1 focused solely on giving him the nurturing, care and love that any child deserves. I can say today, I am a proud and lucky mama! I spent time looking at baby pictures, posted them on Facebook reminiscing so many wonderful moments. And finally at one point, I broke down and cried. Mostly, they were happy tears.
So today it is bittersweet as he is ready to take on the world this year, getting ready to go to college. I constantly encourage him to be confident and emphasize the importance of getting an education. So many changes are on the horizon for Cristian and myself this year. Let’s see what ship he embarks. I am ready to let him fly free and spread his wings.
He might have some bumps and scrapes along the way, as we all do. He won’t be able to escape certain pains in life, but hopefully he will recover from them with flying colors and create a life worth living maintaining all the values I have instilled in him. I trust and know he will.